the hypocrite...


decay... © Raffaella Loro

The apartment building I live in is part of a complex made up of two other buildings of the same height in addition to a third (or fourth depending on how you are counting) lower level building, all of which share the same alleyway which allows brave pedestrians and reckless drivers to access the various parkades and off-street entrances. This alley becomes a wind tunnel of sorts and at times the resulting rush of wind by my apartment window sounds quite sinister. The evil whistle is not the kind of thing I like to hear when I'm trying to convince my tired body that it needs to get out of bed in the morning.

I attended a seminar for work in November about non-traditional job development. I came to the session a little skeptical about what I would learn from it, but I was pleasantly surprised with the information that I garnered from the presentation. The one item that left me the most inspired was the concept of employment proposals - infusing a little entrepreneurial spirit into the job search and creating work for yourself. I had left the session with my mind full of ideas, not just for my own clients, but also for myself. However, I have yet to implement any of those ideas that I had reserved for myself. I'd like to be able to eschew the traditional office job that I have, which despite providing consistent remuneration it is not consistently fulfilling or challenging in a creative way. What else do I need to do in order to be more productive as a photographer? Where is my whip when it comes to personal motivation? However, that's all the superficial musing I can do for this morning. This sanctioned break needs to come to a close.


  1. my conscience says:1/13/2007 8:39 AM

    I am such a good photographer I should just quit this dumb job and throw everything into it. I should move to New York, put together a beautiful portfolio, meet art/creative directors, convince a SoHo gallery to show my work, get published in the New Tork Times magazine and live the life I dream about.